arcade nihilist

I always thought I'd quote that Gloria Gaynor "I Will Survive" line if I ever met a martian. That song comes to mind, given the times we're living in (Social Distancing/ and in that society becoming more distanced than I thought imaginable.) I feel like a martian on some level now...do we all? We're removed and we're isolated from one another like never before in our lifetimes. Or maybe a better comparison would be David Bowie's "Space Oddity" or David Bowie (always Bowie!) in "The Man Who Fell to Earth". Just like in my beloved "Twilight Zone" reruns, on some level we as humans are the martians so alienated from each other, yet we never fell to Earth, so why are we so removed and distant from one another? Why can't we comprehend that others go through pain that some of us have the privilege not to have experienced, and shouldn't this be a wake up call for all of us to try to live differently, more thoughtfully and c...

...about when I wrote these words: " I am a published writer, but in my estimation, not nearly enough as I should be" . Well, today they seem arrogant. It is not that I think I'm such a wonderful gift to humanity that I deserve it all. NO! I am self-conscious about my work, myself. In truth, what I was trying to say to myself is "Get off your duff, Christina, and WRITE MORE!" I was thinking about missed opportunities. I was trying to motivate myself to become more, because I am not where I am supposed to be yet. Seems I need a mantra. There is this innate feeling, calmly guiding me. I've always felt like Life is pulling me slowly in a certain direction. I think I will instinctively know when I have reached the point. I am not there yet. I must keep going, keep it together, keep WRITING. I used to think everyone felt pulled by a life's path electricity, but I get blank looks when I try to explain myself. It's a winding road; not yellow brick, but invi...

Some people think that writers block is a myth, but I assure you, it is the very real second cousin once removed of the brain fart. Symptoms (in my experience, anyway) include: -Mild Depression -Cluttered thoughts (can I Feng Shui my head?) -Sleeplessness -Anxiety -The feeling like I forgot/am missing something Will they invent a pill for writers block? Will they advertise it incessently on television, then quickly list all of its potentially fatal side effects at the end of said advertisement? The thing I hate most is when you have no clue what you are going to attempt to write next. Then you go to a dinner party or something, and have people say: SOO what are you writing? And What are you gonna write next? And they're not really listening, anyhow. They just want to see me squirm a little, right? Because that's what writers do at dinner parties. We squirm. A little. And that's when I generally get my idea of what to write next, only I'm seemingly miles from a pad, or ...

Would you believe I wrote a lengthy post that did not go through?? Curse technology, but it's probably for the best. Too revealing, maybe. Oh wait, I see its still saved as a draft! The big reveal below!

Would you believe I stopped blogging because I forgot my password?? Or was it more than that...but really, did I think I could make it in my Written World without this type of therapy? That's what it is...the best type of therapy, the inward turned outward. Did I ever share my favorite writing quote? "If I do not write to empty my mind, I go mad" - George Gordon Byron - So true, and no one wants that! This is the best possible elixer, isn't it? Typing whatever ails you away. I remember my college roommate said she loved to hear me typing at night. She said it sounded like rain tapping at the window. It's strange what you recollect all these years later...but I'm still the Same Me, right? The one who tapped at the window with her raindrops? This one is older, though...she's lost some people in her life. She doesn't get too close to friends, anymore, and that's both good and bad for her writing. She's more of an observer now. People don't hur...

I don't know if this is how a writing blog is supposed to look. I am trying, though. If it looks funky to you (and not in a Parliament Funkadelic- George Clinton- headdressy kinda way) lemme know. So I was looking around our bedroom at my writing guides. You know, the how-to trying to help kind of texts that advise/confuse aspiring writers? I liken these books to Great Aunts, oh, of course they MEAN well... Some Facts About The Writing Books Currently Sharing A Residence With My Husband & I (And These Books Are NOT Paying Rent): Number of Writing Books in My Collection= 29 Number of Writing Books with Orange or Yellow Covers=3 Number of Writing Books by Roald Dahl=2 Number of Writing Books by Celebrity Writers=2 Number of Writing Books with the word "Television" in the Title=2 Number of Writing Books with the words "Fiction" or "Short Stories" in the Title=5 Number of Writing Books with the words "Playwright" in the TItle=2 Number of Book...

My artist friends, the very talented Dahlia Broul and Jarrod Gecek thought it appropriate for a writer to have a showcase for her writing. I hope in this blog to do just that. If I do not stick to topics pertaining to writing and my personal writing experience, feel free to scold me. About me: I am a published writer! Yes! I am married! It's true! I really like exclamation points, and I always overuse the elipsis... What do you think of my first post?